Today is the first day of my new life.  I celebrated by going to hot yoga….. twice.  One 75 minute flow and one 90 minute yin.  It was hard.  I sweat a lot.  And I loved it.  It was probably un-yogi-like of me, but all during both classes, I kept thinking about how much I really wanted to start a blog.  I’ve NEVER wanted to blog until today.  NEVER.  I could not understand why people would want to talk about themselves publicly — in great detail.  It’s sort of like the people who post minute by minute on Facebook.  I like living alone because no one knows what I do all day. I can sit in bed until dinner if I want.  Watch shitty tv.  I can eat in bed. I can drink wine in bed.  I can eat more.  And then drink more.  No one but my cats judge me.  It’s great.  Lazing in bed and doing all the things you’re not supposed to do if you’re a “normal” productive person is great.

So why am I starting this blog?  Because for the very first time in my life, I want EVERYONE to know about my life.  Because it’s been pretty awful and pretty amazing the past few years — and I want EVERYONE to know why.  So please follow me.

Here are the very important things you need to know about me in no particular order. Things that currently define me. Hopefully some of them won’t define me down the road. But they do now.

1.  In August 2012, I had a brain aneurysm.  Obviously, I survived.  Which is a miracle — and I have a group of amazing friends to thank for that.  The brain aneurysm aftermath absolutely sucked.  I recommend never having one.  I was in the hospital for weeks. (I don’t actually remember much of it at all.)  I had 4 brain surgeries, and I have a shunt in my head now.  An ugly feeling pipe that sits on the top of my head and drains brain goop into my stomach.  Apparently it keeps me alive. I hate it.  And I don’t care that I’m the only one that notices it.  It sucks.  And sometime down the line, I will document more details about my brain explosion.  For now, just know, it sucked and still sucks.

2.  I live in NYC, but I’m from Woodside, California — which is a horse-filled town at the edge of silicon valley.  I love NYC, particularly the neighborhoods south of 14th Street.  The upper areas of Manhattan remind me of the suburbs so I prefer not to venture through them unless I have to.  (Weekends never involve anything over 14th Street.  But of course I work in the armpit of NYC — Times Square — so weekdays force me out of my comfort zone and into the torture chamber.)

3.  I work for Peanuts.  Yes — as in Snoopy and Charlie Brown.  I’ve been doing it for years and years — and I like to think that I’m fairly decent at it.  I’ve been able to do amazing things and meet amazing people because of my job.  There’s also a roller coaster story behind this one – -but I’ll save that for a future blog entry. It deserves more attention.

4.  I have many friends.  And they’re pretty fucking cool.

5.  I recently was discarded into the trash by a psychopath or sociopath, depending on what website you read.  Boy, do I feel stupid.  Again, more on this later. And yes, I will eventually divulge his name so that others won’t fall prey to his terrible and monster like behavior.  But not today.

6.  This is not a Mommy Blog.  I am not a Mommy.  I work with a lot of Mommy Bloggers at work. I have major respect for them.  And I’m impressed that some even make money at it.  But this is not what my blog is.  My blog is about ME..  and maybe sometimes my friends, family and cats… and what wine I’m drinking.

So why a double hot yoga class on a symbolic new day?  Because even I managed to gross myself out with self indulgence and wallow.  I survived a brain aneurysm.  It sucked.  It took me a long time to get over it — physically and emotionally.  But I survived.  And I want to turn a new leaf and move through my current shitty situation – and be happy…. ish.   Maybe not thrilled — just content… and happy-ish.

Thanks for reading.